Is Anybody Talking About The Humidity?

Here in New England, nobody talks about the weather.

Just kidding, fucking everyone talks about it. It doesn’t matter if it’s an inch of snow, or ten feet of snow… if it’s 50 degrees in July or 110 degrees; someone is going to point out how much different it is than last year, or they’re going to talk about how next season is going to be a doozy, or how this is the worst they’ve seen in awhile, or whatever it’s doing to affect their plans. It’s the first topic of conversation for so. many. interactions. 

“Boy, it sure is hot, but this humidity…” Of course, thanks for reminding me that it’s the humidity that is making the heat worse, as I was beginning to get confused about what was happening. I was content to write it off as an invisible wet plastic bag to my entire body, but this theory seems much more likely.

Humidity isn’t just a shitty thing when it’s hot. It’s sometimes humid when it’s not  warm, which only serves to make you feel like you’re suddenly dead. Nothing is worse than cold and clammy, because there is no way to get away from it. We had that weather a few days ago, and it wasn’t pleasant, but thankfully it lasted all of 2 hours, before we were back to the blistering sweat bath. I feel like a corpse now, but one that has been left in the hot sun for a few days. (And in the humidity!)

So, it’s realer-than-real-deal-Holyfield hot. New England isn’t exactly the first place you think of, when you think about hot climates, but 90 degrees is hot, in my opinion, and when you slap the humidity on, it feels like the End Of Times. As much as I hate the heat, I’m not one of those A/C junkies who can’t go anywhere without it, and has A/C in their house, and their cooled garage, and then their car, and their parking garage, and office. I don’t have a garage, or access to a parking garage, and certainly don’t have an office, but I also don’t use A/C in my house or my car, because I’m allergic to something about it, and I don’t know what it is, but I wish it wasn’t real. Allergic to relief: that’s me.

It’s fucking hot, what the hell??! How can it be possible, that my mood is so affected by the weather?? I mean… I’m really irritable! I can’t sleep at night, I don’t want to shower, I don’t want to put on clothes, I don’t want to cook any food, I don’t want to walk around or do any fucking thing, because IT’S TOO HOT TO BE ALIVE!!! I proposed the idea to my sister, that this is nature’s eugenics; killing off the weakest people who can’t deal with how oppressive and strangulating this heat is!! It’s not just the heat, it’s all of the natural disasters that have been happening, that support my theory that Mother Nature is sick as fuck of us, and is going to make us all deathly uncomfortable, or uproot us with earthquakes and volcanic eruptions and tsunamis and hurricanes and wildfires and sinkholes and blizzards and tornadoes until we just give up.

But it’s also this heat.

Some of my readers live in places that are hotter than 90 degrees, pretty much all the time, which horrifies me to think about. Even if I was waking up to a tropical paradise, 90 degrees loses its flair after about 50 seconds. My friends love it, and tell me I would totally get used to it, but I tell my friends they clearly don’t know a damn thing about me, and to let me complain, or just get out. I sound like a crybaby to them, and that’s okay. I think I sound like a crybaby to a lot of people, on account of how much complaining I do. But to be suffering in heat worse than this and still wanting to read my writing… my complaining must not be that bad after all. Man, people must really love me.

My parents are coming to visit us this weekend, from out-of-state (and I still wrote you something!). That means I have been running around like crazy, to every store in the city, and experiencing their varying levels of A/C usage. From my adventures, the Goodwill store clearly has the right idea about keeping things cool. I’m not sure why, since all of the stuff in there is musty and damp anyway. Surprisingly, the grocery store was one of the warmest places I stepped into, which was off-putting, considering I went to the auto mechanic (again) too, and even that was cooler than the grocery store. Plus, I got a pat on the back for intuitively recognizing that something wasn’t right with my car. I guess it wasn’t even noticeable to him, until he inspected what I says, and there be the solution. Do you know why I knew something wasn’t right with that bitch? Because I’m one with her. Also, because there’s always something going on with that car. But she’s still alive, though, so I guess I should be knocking on wood (or whatever your religion does). She and I are a lot alike, in that way. I told you we were one.

I just took a break from writing, because I had to paint the bathroom. I chose a brightsy-darksy-ish red color, which I was excited about at the store (when I was buying all of my other colors, for all of the other rooms that look dy-no-mite), but when I got home, I started to think this red would remind me of a menstrual period. It’s pretty much that exact color, on the wheel. My kids didn’t feel the same, although, Sonny did say it reminded him of where he should go when he was bleeding out and needed first aid. (So, same thing.)

You know who ended up needing first aid? Me. Because my brilliant ass decided to paint the bathroom, on a 90 degree day, with the bathroom being one of the many rooms in my house that does not have a functioning window. It’s an old building, and we’re right on the water table, so the building has settled a bunch. The windows don’t all open, what do you want? I’ll tell you what want: a window that opens! There’s no ventilation in there, so guess which second-floor-bathroom-without-a-window-that-opens was being painted in the apex of heat and humidity in this house? Shutup. That red bathroom will forever remind me of the anger and frustration and heat and flames I endured, just to end up with the stark reminder that you definitely need multiple-multiple coats when you paint with red, because it’s the most nightmarish color to paint with. The humidity is never going to let that damn bathroom dry.

I ran out of paint, and am nowhere near done, so I guess writing this is the real break. I remember this morning, I texted Matt and told him “It’s too hot, I don’t want to do anything today,” and he said, “Don’t.” Hahahaha. Those were good times.

I went to Goodwill today, and there was a guy there, who was seriously asking if the framed print on the bottom shelf was an original painting, or if it was a copy, and he smelled so strongly of Adidas cologne, which I recognized from my days of dating 18 year-old wannabe gangsters. I didn’t have the heart to tell the guy that there was no chance I would tell him if I recognized something as valuable, or that his stench was making me want to run back out into the humidity, so I just said, “You never know what you’ll find here.” Which was really about the situation.

You know what you will find there? A/C, which, it turns out, doesn’t bother me if it’s not directly near me. It must be something that the appliance emits, that my histamine blockers can’t effectively fight off, because I’m doomed to be miserable. Who is allergic to A/C?? I’ve literally never met another person who is.

Okay, it’s too hot, and I still have to make lamb chops, which I’ve never done before, but I’ve been successful at winging so many things, that I’m not that worried about fucking up. What I am worried about, is the kitchen getting hot, and I’m worried about eating all of the beer cheese that I made for my step-dad, and I’m worried about not sleeping tonight because it’s HOT AS FUUUUUCK. I’m sure that in reality, I’m going to crush all of this shit, and the only person who will even be judging is ME, because if I didn’t have self-torture, who would I be? I think they call that motivation, and I need all the motivation I can get right now. I’m being smothered by the humidity.

-jg

 

 

 

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